a part of me...

Thursday, November 21, 2013

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Do you ever have those days when you can get someone or something out of your head? Well I m having that day. I generally don’t think with my heart or make many decisions based on emotions because I find it easier that way; I think I’m one of those logical people, who looks at pros and cons, and knows when to cut my loses and move on.. and this works very well in most cases. Actually, the logic works in all cases except this one… and for sake of his privacy we will call him Ben.

You are probably sitting there confused so let me back up… Ben is the one that got away for me. Years ago I made a very logical decision that I no longer wanted or cared about the relationship or lack there off. We live on opposite side of the world, want different things in life, I was in love and he was flirting with the idea of what if. This logic worked well until out of nowhere there he was, standing in front of me! I swear it took all of 30 seconds before everything I ever felt came flying back. Whenever I get to writing that book Ben will a HUGE part of it… but back to reality now! Instead of catching up on nearly 300 emails I have , I can’t get him out of my head.

I have a feeling I will spend the rest of this week convincing myself that I don’t need or want this!